Happy 2018! Did you make it into the new year intact? A few people I know said their 2017 wasn’t the best it could have been and that they are looking forward to trying again this year. Kudos to them and I wish them nothing but success in reaching the levels of happiness they desire for themselves. Myself, however, had a very enlightening 2017. I learned and retained the lessons brought on by the tests I endured in 2016. If you haven’t read any of my other blog post let me just let you know that from late February 2016 to about late February 2017 was FILLED with losses of every kind and I am not even exaggerating. Sure there were great moments squeezed in the mix but ultimately, I lost some people and things I tried holding close and it hurt like hell while it was happening. I tried my best to self soothe and replace people and things with other people and things that I assumed was suitable replacements. How wrong was I. What was actually happening was God/the Universe/ Consciousness etc. began removing those people and things that was holding me back from stepping into the next chapter of my life. Funny thing is I came to realize this while watching an old movie (I didn’t catch the name) that showed a guy being dragged from a moving vehicle. I thought “geeze, I bet it hurts him more to keep holding on than it would if he’d just let go.”
I made a promise to myself last year to do more things that initially scare me, to stand firm in my no’s and yes’: a shaky, uncertain “yes” should very well be a “no”. I’m embracing my impulsive nature because waiting stirs the pot simmering my anxiety much more than I’m comfortable with but I’m also learning how to let my anxiety pull out levels of inner strength I have yet to tap into. Oh, and if you’re wondering, I’m still living a plant-based life. 🙂
I have so many projects and plans for my life, including this blog, that has been sitting untouched for so long in my heart that they started growing roots and is covered in a thin layer of dust. I will get off them all off the ground; I must! And the only way to do so is to let go of the people and things that no longer serve me so I can move and grow.